circle takes square

i've divorced feelings of inadequecies
conquerred months of pain and suffering
mourned the loss of family, friends, loved ones...

and an ex-girlfriend still tends the fields of thoughts in my brain...

can someone please pass the irony?
i'm sorry i just find it morbidly ironic that:
this one person (my ex)
that has caused me so much pain
so much sufferring, doubt, confusion, mistrust...
not to mention spiritual second-guessing...

i find it ironic that she can still have residence in my heart.

where's the logic mr. spock?
"the needs of the many outweigh the needs of the few, or the one."
isn't that what you said in various star trek movies?
well, i'm sure there are many that would like to have my heart
so her needs would be outwieghed by theirs right?
i agree that sounds conceited
but as i've written somewhere before (probably myspace)
i will find my perfect match some day
because she is looking for me
the ridiculous part i didn't stop to think about was...
what if she found me, and i was too stupid and inhabited by old girlfriends...huh?!
or, what if my old girlfriend is the one for me?

well the bell just rang so i can leave high school now....back to reality

i'm lonely.
i'm busy.
i'm tired.
i want love.

i want love.

and i'm scared to death
that i'll never find it
or that it's passed me by

-jw