guise

judging by the number of stars i see
it's got to be getting late
it just has to be.
i'm not even outside and i can see stars
maybe it's the side affects
may be.
or i'm tired.
maybe both.

i'm very content writing for hours
about how i love her
how she loves me.
how i miss her.
how she misses me.

i know her. and i miss her.
like a bad taste in my mouth.
she is that close to my heart.
she punishes my senses

that muscle in my chest
it beats with unrest
and rightfully so
she is however the most beautiful woman
i have ever known.
not so much in the guise that you should naturally see
but so much more
even though i can see nothing but...
...the most beautiful woman i have ever seen.
a woman like this you will never see
you can see this one, but you'll never know
walk right by her
she'll be just another girl.
because this is my fairytale
and you're just not in the text.
don't think for one second you change me for the best...

it's in her eyes
it's in the wind that walks through her hair
it's the smile bigger than this universe
and shines brighter too if you asked me.
...and you didn't

but i cannot fool myself
she is down there
and i am...here

GOD DO AWAY WITH ME!
...God...do away with me.
if i'm just so foolish
if i'm just so blind
there's no way that's the truth
she is down there
i am up here
nothing.
happens.

i'm so blind.
i've exchanged eyes
with lies or maybe just a heart in disguise
either way.

i love her.